He calls;
I'm vulnerable;
I don't pick up the phone.
He sends a message;
I am relieved;
I don't have to call back.
The next day;
I am depressed;
I need to talk to someone.
I lay on my bed
He calls
I watch his name blinking on the screen;
Calling me "rescue is here",
and my mind tells me "the devil is here";
I ignore.
He hangs up
I feel guilty and yet,
I feel great relief
I defeated the devil
jeeez
ReplyDeleteYou're strong.
ReplyDeleteI have been through a similar situation recently. I didnt have the gutts to spell the words and in all honesty I was a bit reluctant to end the relationship.
ReplyDelete(heart vs mind)
Eventually I managed to get myself together and make the ultimate decision which was blacklisting her mobile so that she wont be able to get a hold of me and when she finally did thru another phone line, I had the courage to utter the words that I can no longer do this!
she wont understand ( madree laish )
lesson learned (en7aash gabol fawat el awan)
she's married!
to pre-empt any misapprehnsion about the en7aash part...y3ny I shouldnt have taken it any further the moment she confided to me that she is married!
ReplyDeletekabesh?
would my post be of any relevance??
ReplyDeleteit's all about the attitude.
................. :)
ReplyDeleteP.S. Check your email
Demons, Flaming...demons......
ReplyDeleteb strong.. most of the times the only reason u run to pick up is DOODA.. lo bs allah yfukna mn hal 6ab3.. chan we all have tight knotted closures
ReplyDeletei gotta contragulate u on achieving your weight goal :)
ReplyDeletethe bmi ruler thingy is very cute :)
Still on holiday :) ?
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