Mothers day

I had so much to say when I was in bed, and when I was driving to work. But now as I type, all is gone. Should I get myself a recorder for such times?

Yesterday as a miracle happened to me because of mothers day, and as someone who believes that such days like mothers or valentines day should be celebrated the whole year long, it is a day to remind those who don't celebrate it of unexpressed emotions. We need an alarm to wake us up in the morning. We need a slap in the face to see reality sometimes. These occasions are good for those who don't "remember".

Mothers day, makes me think of myself as a mom. It is true that I've always wished for a child, and still do, I feel that it would be selfish of me to bring a life to this world. What world would my baby live and what future would he have? Why contribute to a world that is ending? I am afraid that my child would blame me for bringing him to this world. I have motherly instincts to fulfill, but this fulfillment would be selfish.

Hugs and kisses to my unborn children. I love you.


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