You ask me why

Dearest Soul,

I cried because I felt pity for myself;
Watching you rehearse your words;
Wanting to be there with you.

I cry because I want you; It hurts.
Sometimes I cry because I love you;
The feeling itself moves me.

I have fear inside;
Fear of the unknown.

Fear of letting go of my feelings and desires;
I wish to break this wall.

This barrier that is making me act like a 15 year old;
Help me release ME.