Saturday, October 18, 2008

saying my goodbyes

at coasta now, sipping my mocha with melted flake, crunching my cheese croissant. i feel like crying. it's my last day. i am going to diet care and start a new phase of torture. i just hope i loose weight fast so that i can come back here to my flake mocha and cheese croissant. there are other restaurants i want to say my goodbyes to. but you can't have them all in a matter of a few days. 

now the question is, can you refer me to a good dietitian in diet care? i used to go to essa dashti who was great and now i can't seem to recognize the other names there, essa left them.



Tuesday, October 07, 2008

i am full

why do i eat till my stomach gets full and feel like throwing up? why do i keep doing that?
my stomach yells and says have mercy
but i haven't
i love food
and food loves me
maybe it's emotional eating
what i want is to fall in love and see if my eating lessens
even when i don't feel like eating, i still eat
my clothes are getting tight
my cheeks are exploding
i don't have the energy to run up the staires
and when i walk, i feel pregnant.
whenever i decide to diet, i eat more
from now on i will try thinking of the opposite
i want to gain wait
lets see, maybe i'd eat less!!
have you been to napket? i so want to go.

Sunday, October 05, 2008


shagool sha7chi
shay mukhzi, mukhazi jiddan jiddan.
mali khulg aktib. bas gilt a3abir 3an shu3oori eb sa6rain.
la baktib, akhaf ag3ad bachir nasya el details.

a mother with a 3 year old boy,bandaged leg, on a wheel chair, feeding him a chocolate bar and chips that she got from the vending machine.
there's no cafeteria there.

a man is thirsty. again there's no cafeteria, and the vending machine has no mineral water. there is a barrada but there are no cups. he takes a foam espresso cup from the coffee machine and goes back to barrada to drink. he calls his driver to go to the nearest baqala (soog amwaja albahar almarkazi) to buy him and his family mineral water.

an old woman lying in men's emergency room because the women's is full and her family keeps closing the curtains for the check up.

a man talks loudly on a mobile phone:
him: entay binta? tara obooch 6a7 3alaina bil qahwa. wain morta?
the doctor hears him and calls:
law sama7at law sama7t! she takes the phone and asks: feeh marath? feeh marath bil kila? mo gadir yitnaffas.

a patient's file is lost. they keep looking, but it's still lost.
not found. heard of egov? it's just a myth.

a patient is taken to a room. different staff help to carry her including nurses, farasheen, farashat.
farrash takes the oxygen tube and tries to fix it.
he shouldn't be holding it, hands must be clean. he does it with his mate, wanting tips from the patients family.

patient is lying straight. she can't breath. her son asks the nurse to push up the bed so that she can breath. nurse says that there is no remote. nurse asks farrasha to go to bed number X and takes its remote. farrasha goes and comes back with nothing. nurse asks where is the remote. farrasha says enta makoo gool remote. farrasha is older than the old patient.

patient has to take medicine. patient has to take medicine. patient has to take medicine. she can't open her mouth. family waits forever for the khafara doctor. forever and ever and ever, family goes home.

jana7 emjadad 3ala nafaqat mu7sina. laish? laish 3ala nafaqat mu7sina?

the ceiling is falling down. i can't look above. i am too scared.

lift takes FOREVER. the elderly can't use the stairs.

in the lift: he doesn't know what button to push. many numbers including "open" and "close" are vanished. why not play a guess game?

i feel sick. i don't know what's making me sicker, the illness of the person i was visiting, or the illness of my country.

It's a shame.

me clicks: publish post

Saturday, October 04, 2008